I Want To Be Someone Who Loves Deeply

I want to be someone who loves deeply, like Jesus loves, with such mercy and grace.

That’s what I want to be known for: as someone who loved.

Sometimes I like to imagine myself as a headteacher of a school, or preaching on a big stage or even fulfilling big BIG dreams and visions. Sometimes I think “now that would be a good legacy” or “wouldn’t it be great to be known for that”. But when we boil down to the root of everything it’s LOVE, it has to be love.

I want to be someone who loves so deeply that she invests in others through mentoring. I want to love so deeply that I wash pans and sweep church hall floors late into the night. I want to love so deeply that I want to manage a team as a Head Teacher because it’s the best way to love those people. I want to preach so that I can love others by sharing the word God has given me. The motivation has to be love.

This has to be the desire of our heart. This has to be our first thought in the morning and the last words we whisper on a night: “Help me to love deeply”.

I want to love with a mercy that offers such compassion and forgiveness that it points to nothing and no one but Jesus.

I want to love with such grace that the blessing of God is tangible in each moment.

I want to love like it’s the verb that it is. An action. Like there is nothing more important in this world than the person right in front of you.

In leadership courses, internships, youth groups, small groups, student nights – any form of philosophical discussion really – you’ll probably get asked the questions:

1. What motivates you?

2. What do you want to be known for?

3. Who are you?

The answer to all these needs to be love. To be motivated by love. To be known as someone who is loved and loves in return. To be a person of love.

Hands up high, I’m not very good at this. But I do know one thing: that when I’m most in love with the saviour and in communion with Him is when I love best.

First, we repent for not loving. And then ask (only if we really mean it though) “Please help me to love.”

This is love: not that we loved God, but He loved us first. 1 John 4:10

Wider Reading - 'Love Does', Bob Goff