I Believe I Am A Child Of God

From around April through to October I was in a good season of identity. I was so sure in who I was in Jesus. But I’ve found recently that I’m not in the same place I was before.

I think these kinds of feelings are so subjective that we can find ourselves in a deep hole with a long way up if we don’t catch it early.

I’ve found that actually there are some tell-tale signs for me when I’m starting to lose my security in my identity in Jesus. Because that’s what we lose: security in who we are. As a result there are repercussions.

I want to share some of the ‘signs’ that show my identity isn’t healthy, what are yours? I find recognising these helpful to make it easier to stay on track in this aspect of faith.

1 // WORDS

My words are not few and full but utter drabble.

I find that when I’m not secure that my identity is found in Jesus, I speak lots to try and establish myself. I say lots of words that add very little to conversation to help myself think I know who I am and what I’m doing.

2 // BOYS

I lose my ‘secure in singleness’ status.

I find that when I’m not secure in my identity I’m much more in search of a boyfriend and looking for attractive guys.

3 // HUMILITY

Humility goes out the window.

I’m all of a sudden telling everyone how great I am and what I’ve achieved in life.

4 // ONE UPMANSHIP

I always want to be the best because I no longer see that were all equal in the kingdom.

I can’t be happy in others successes.

And I can make myself seem way better than others.

5 // SOURCE OF STRENGTH

I do things in my strength not his.

And that just ends in disaster.

6 // CLOSENESS

I have less motivation to spend time with the father.

I doubt more.

I’m not saying I don’t have tendencies like this when I am secure in identity but I find these are tell-tale signs that I’m beginning to find my identify in other things. The question is how to get back on track?